

Saved by love and responsibility, Cunnell charts his journey from anger to compassion, as his daughter Jay realizes he is a boy, and a son. Still he felt compelled to destroy the relationships that mattered to him. Starting with his own childhood in the Sussex beachlands, Howard tells the story of the years of self-destruction that defined his young adulthood and the escape he found in reading and the natural world.

Now, years later, he is a father, and his daughter is becoming his son. Was he thinking, do I have to be this kind of boy to survive? Is this what being a boy is?Īs a boy growing up on the south coast of England, Howard Cunnell’s sense of self was dominated by his father’s absence. Behold, and rejoice.’ – Tim Winton, author of Cloudstreet ‘There is so much aching love in this book, such pain and beauty.
